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Amber and I have been on a 6 year journey. Really for her it has been more like a six year sprint of which there seems to be no end; all to my irresponsibility.

I have been in this “transition” period over the past several years and it has been wild. This metamorphosis has not been easy at all. Who I once was does not really exist any longer. I am happy about that.

Relationships change. Theology Changes. Ministry methods change. People change. I change. It all changes.

I didn’t ask for the change…or did I? I don’t really know.

Through all of this, my wife has not changed. Of course there have been certain areas of her life that have shifted along with other things, but overall she has remained very solid.

She has been faithful to me…in spite of me. She has watched me fight for what I once held as sacred and holy and now she is watching me surrender to God’s will in this new season of my life.

For Amber, its seems to me, always finds a way to move into a better place in life and ministry way before I ever arrive. Of course this probably leaves her feeling alone or “out there”. She probably wonders “On which planet does does my husband live?” I don’t have the answer for that either…wait…yes I do…it’s a little town east of Lostville called Crazytown. Ever visited? Don’t worry – if you have’nt one day you will.

So this journey has broken me down to nothing. It has stripped my mind. I have lost sleep over this kind of thing for too long. But through Amber’s patience I can say that I made it. I have made it out of this fog that I lived in.

I masked it all by ministry. I just kept on preaching and teaching and singing and whatever… Always reaching for something that God did not intend for my life. Now, I can be settled. Settled in His will and do what He wants me to do.

I have to attribute all of this to the beautiful girl in the picture above. She has prayed and patiently waited on me to catch up to where God was leading us. No, we are not there yet – but – the process is in motion and we are happier than ever.

As for marriage – it’s always been great. But ministry was different for us. It took a rough turn a few years ago. I was so hard headed. I just made bad decisions. And for some reason, I made them with Jesus’ name attached.

I am glad that my lady has been able to separate marriage and ministry. It has saved our marriage and my mind.

I write this blog today just to publicly say thank to my wife Amber for who she is in my life. We think we see the big picture of what God is doing in us at such an early age – then we live a few years – all of it changes.

I love you Amber,
Matt